"Did you know
that at the edge of a deep valley,
there is an excellent pine tree
growing up straight
in spite of the many years of cold?"
- Keizan
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WELCOME AND THANK YOU
A warm welcome to you, My Dear Reader! I am truly grateful for the gift of your presence; and I thank you for the privilege of sharing my healing experience with you.
DEDICATION
This blog is dedicated to all who - as a result of childhood experiences and conditions - know what it means to live long years in the cold. With this writing, I honor you.
THIS BLOG IS ABOUT MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE IN HEALING A 40+ YEAR OLD PATCH OF PSORIASIS ON MY RIGHT PALM
This blog is about my personal experience in healing - accidentally at first - a patch of
psoriasis that had been on my right palm for over 40 years. The initial healing was "accidental" in that I had been trying to heal the emotional and physical exhaustion that I experienced shortly after I retired, not my psoriasis.
Through this writing, I share with you my own best understanding of both the cause
of my psoriasis - and the cure.
Simply stated, I believe that my psoriasis was caused by a high level of unreleased build-up of fear.
The cure - in summary - was to release the stored fear - and to identify my current beliefs and to then correct/adjust my belief system so that I would not continue to accumulate excessive levels of fear.
THIS BLOG IS ABOUT MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE IN HEALING A 40+ YEAR OLD PATCH OF PSORIASIS ON MY RIGHT PALM
This blog is about my personal experience in healing - accidentally at first - a patch of
psoriasis that had been on my right palm for over 40 years. The initial healing was "accidental" in that I had been trying to heal the emotional and physical exhaustion that I experienced shortly after I retired, not my psoriasis.
Through this writing, I share with you my own best understanding of both the cause
of my psoriasis - and the cure.
THE PRIMARY CAUSE OF MY PSORIASIS WAS FEAR (OF DEATH)
The fear had accumulated over many years, and was caused by a number of conditions and experiences of very early childhood. I lived for most of my life with a deep fear - at times terror - of the consequences of failing to please, or of disappointing or angering others.
Underlying this ever present fear was an extremely powerful yet almost entirely unconscious belief system. I believed that I needed the assistance and care of others to survive. I had no sense of security regarding my care, and believed that this necessary assistance and care were not guaranteed. In fact, I not only believed that this necessary assistance and care could be withdrawn by the givers, but that it would in fact be withdrawn if I failed to please, or if I disappointed or angered the givers. And so, the belief became deeply ingrained in me that pleasing others, and avoiding disappointing or angering them, was absolutely and literally essential to my safety and survival in the world.
These beliefs, by the way, were the result of a certain kind of early childhood. A "cold childhood." A childhood largely lacking in physical and verbal affection, and characterized by indifference to certain expressed emotions and requests, and the withdrawal of attention and responsiveness by caregivers when displeased or angered (the "invisibility treatment").
THE CURE OF MY PSORIASIS: RELEASING STORED FEAR & THE BELIEFS THAT CAUSED IT
The cure for me was a process made up of several different, but related, steps (to be described more fully in a later post). But in a nutshell, for me the process involved the release of stored/unreleased fear and revising my belief system to eliminate the old fear-generating beliefs and replace them with new positive beliefs.
In fact - and as discussed in the posts - I believe that believe my body formed the patch of psoriasis on my palm as a kind of protective defense mechanism to serve as a release valve for fear energy.
The cure - in summary - was to release the stored fear - and to identify my current beliefs and to then correct/adjust my belief system so that I would not continue to accumulate excessive levels of fear.
As I have released these energies and the beliefs that caused them, the psoriasis has gradually but steadily faded, and is now so faint as to be completely unnoticeable to a causal observer.
A PERSONAL MESSAGE TO ALL WHO STILL SUFFER THE EFFECTS OF CHILDHOOD WOUNDS TO THE HEART, MIND AND SPIRIT
Though you may not yet know, believe, understand, see or feel it, and - despite the many
great hardships, sorrows and fears that you have endured - still yet there lies within you the unbroken and glorious spirit of that excellent pine tree, untouched by the cold.
And the day WILL COME when you too will . . .
REMEMBER . . . WHO . . . YOU . . . ARE.
And then, though the power of your own healing, you - and your life - will be transformed.
And as you continue to walk your own individual path - in your new life - you will leave the years of cold behind.
And then, My Dear Reader, you will . . . you will . . .
A PERSONAL MESSAGE TO ALL WHO STILL SUFFER THE EFFECTS OF CHILDHOOD WOUNDS TO THE HEART, MIND AND SPIRIT
Though you may not yet know, believe, understand, see or feel it, and - despite the many
great hardships, sorrows and fears that you have endured - still yet there lies within you the unbroken and glorious spirit of that excellent pine tree, untouched by the cold.
And the day WILL COME when you too will . . .
REMEMBER . . . WHO . . . YOU . . . ARE.
And then, though the power of your own healing, you - and your life - will be transformed.
And as you continue to walk your own individual path - in your new life - you will leave the years of cold behind.
And then, My Dear Reader, you will . . . you will . . .
CALL FORTH YOUR SPRING.